Bad Day

Anyone who has a child with Autism, or for that matter, any disability or illness will tell you that every once in a while, you have a bad day. A day when you just want to stay in bed and throw the covers over your head. A day when you hurt so much for your child and what is going on with them, that you just want to cry and cry and cry. Today was one of those days for me. Now, before anyone gets to thinking that I'm feeling sorry for myself, let me set the record straight. It's never about me....It's about Ryan. He is such a sweet, lovable little boy and it just rips my heart out when he has trouble with things that "typical" 2 year olds can do. Communication is probably the area where we notice it the most. Ryan has trouble communicating his wants, needs, and preferences some times more than others. As a result, he tends to get frustrated very easily. Staying positive about things one hundred percent of the time is very difficult. I guess the biggest issue that I worry about is Ryan's future. I realize that he is only 2 and 1/2 and that I probably should not be pondering these issues at the moment...but I wonder about things sometimes. Will Ryan continue to make progress ? Will he be able to make the transition from Early Intervention and Building Blocks to the public school system ? Will the services he receives in school be enough for him to continue to make progress ?
I sometimes even worry about the long term future such as whether he will go to college, find love, get married, and other things that I realize I shouldn't be worrying about at this point.

I'm only human folks, and just not having a good day today thinking about all of these "what ifs".

Tomorrow is another day and hopefully my attitude will be better. Sorry to be such a downer, but sometimes, you just gotta let it out.